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lyrics
Trying to be beautiful is terrorizing me
I never thought I’d die for the things I want to be
I’m sorry I can’t keep it together
I'm not sure, I think I'd rather live
Don’t hold me here
Store my skin under my nails
Let me drain, and let me fade
I want to hide away
So drain my arms
Thaw my veins, fill them with blood
Drag me by my wrists and tell me
What has to be done
Trying to be beautiful is terrorizing me
I never thought I’d die for the things I want to be
I’m sorry I can’t keep it together
I'm not sure, I think I'd rather live
I’m sorry i’m not good enough
You think I did it wrong
There’s no calculus to dying
I'll get there on my own
I’m ugly in the eyes of man
And filthy in the eyes of god
So wash me in the caustic river
And leave me on the banks alone
I don’t tire of freezing
But now I am feeding
To stop myself
Falling apart
I hold on to sharp bones
My fingers bore holes
I know I am
Falling apart
Trying to be beautiful is terrorizing me
I never thought I’d die for the things I want to be
I’m sorry I can’t keep it together
I'd die for you
credits
released April 21, 2018
Writing/vocals: Emma Houton
Piano: Kathrina Davila
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